Beautiful Complex Lie

The devil is a woman child

A woman that lies to the world

A woman that hasn’t fully embraced her reality

She lies through smiles as she gathers her followers

She lies as she plays victim to cover her once cheating heart that threw Love aside

She lies as she makes room for those that build her army of hurt

She lies while in the darkness she accuses a young boy of something hideous

She lies as she presents a false love but really it’s to mock the righteous love

She lies like whore engulfed in attention

She lies using an innocent girl as shield

She lies as she flaunts her followers to sabotage and hurt others

She lies like Romans taking money from the Judases that trade love for silver

She lies.

What they don’t see is the future.

And when it happens…truth shall break open

The internal war will take place

Their silence in the matter speaks worldly of their hearts intentions

So run, run to her…

The faster you run to her, the faster you reach truth

You are follower of monster

A devil that tries rips apart her own child’s love

A devil that destroys innocences

A devil that uses love as a resource to hurt

The sad part is that she knows this

And every time she sees a reflection of herself,

she cringes

despite what others shower her with,

she knows what she is

She has to pretend to be a person of light

But in secret she tries to tear apart the love in a home

I know who you are and I see who you are

Once an angel but fell from grace

You are the devil that tries to eliminate a holy marriage between Man and light

You are the devil that hates free love, so you corrupt and hurt

It’s sad to watch as all those innocent souls learn the truth.

But faith and this feeling have never led me astray.

I am truth and will never live a lie or be silenced into a lie.

Save Them All

I prayed for him when I saw his eyes.

The soul whispered “go to him”

Save him.

So I did.

 

I hid with him behind his own walls.

The soul whispered “defend him”

Beside him.

So I stood.

 

Caged in his love for his daughter

The enemy ran her fingers across the bars

Hissed at his every move right or left

Loudly, the lies and questions echoed in people’s hearts.

 

I cradled him when those that he loved deeply turned.

The soul whispered “Use your sword and take him to safety”

Scared and hesitant, I swung.

So I sheltered him from the debris

 

I loved him as he cried feeling betrayed.

The soul whispered “It’s time to fight”

In front of him.

I prepared to fight.

 

Burned sword in hand from the Michelangelo’s fire,

I deterred blow after blow as the enemy tried to hurt all of my family.

Streams of sapphire blue frightened the enemy.

Beautifully, my love placed the crown on my head.

 

I blessed the enemy and her followers before I began.

The soul whispered, “open their hearts”

In Love.

So, I served.

 

I shielded him as their hate spread to others..

The soul whispered, “Forgive them for they do not know”

In front of them.

I forgave.

 

Freed from Karma and Called by Love,

I saw they had never known an ego-less fight.

Loved, I watched them scurry for conditions to blame,

As I placed the ancient rites on their confused darkened souls.

 

I saved him from the noose that quieten his voice.

I stood and turned his cage into a palace.

I sheltered him from the reign of jealously.

I fought with a pure heart of peaceful intent.

I served something greater than others accept.

I forgave as their hearts healed from change and acceptance.

 

The song of who I am has begun to show in their hatred between their words.

Their eyes became covered in blindness,

Their hair fell out with every ego filled movement which kept them crying at night

Their legs swollen in their inability to stand

They lost the same acceptance they denied– a part of themselves.

My heart felt for them all, but I can’t interfere with expanding soul.

 

I sit with my ancient song playing over and over as they watch who I am:

“Praise be to Love my rock,

who trains my hands for war,

my fingers for battle.

It is my Love and my fortress,

my stronghold and my deliverer,

my shield, in whom I take refuge…

They are like a breath;

their days are like a fleeting shadow.

Part your heaven, Love, and come down;

touch the mountains, so that they smoke.

Send forth lightning and scatter the enemy’

shoot your arrows and rout them.

Reach down your hand from on high;

deliver me and rescue me

from the mighty waters,

from the hands of foreigners

whose mouths are full of lies…

to the One who gives victory to kings,

who delivers his servant David.

From the deadly sword…

rescue me from the hands of foreigners

whose mouths are full of lies,

whose right hands are deceitful….

There will be no breaching of walls,

no going into captivity,

no cry of distress in our streets.

Blessed are the people of whom this is true;

blessed are the people whose God is Love”

 

 

 

 

 

She knows…

The flashes spark in my minds eye
I hear her laughter

I see she’s happy with our goodbye

At least it looks that way
However I feel her tears

When no ones watching her

It’s a glimpse of the present so shear

Illusive as if she knows I’m here
Can she do the same as me?

Does she have the same flashes?

The same connection to see

Through my shell and directly at my soul
Is it the nightmare that she went through

Holding in all her knowledge

In fear that insanity would be her que

I would mock her with my silent lies
Does she feel the fire of anger

When I see her in his bed

Their tight embrace is our danger

I lose my ability to breathe
Does she hear me when I say her name?

Did she see me with the others?

Did she hear my thoughts in my brain

Was this her curse when we were together
How could she not tell me?

She heard my thoughts

She felt my emotions

She was truly my other half.
I let her go

I let her walk away

She found another to heal her out of the low

Why did I do this?
Am I a ghost always following her in moments

The way she is in mine

I have to make it make sense

My soul screams her name
My life breathes only her existence

My heart swells outward to reach her

I can’t fight this presence

It’s stripping my world apart
If she can hear me

If she can feel me

How can she be so happy?

So content with her soul purpose diminishing
How can she sleep with the nightmares

The anger rising and the hurt

Suffocating my life with a wound so bare

You can smell in each breathe
Does she feel me shake with fear?

Sweat from the mirror she reflects back

I see what darkness I hid so near

Did she see that? What did I do to her?
She was suffering this massively

But never spoke of it

Only in her eyes so drastically

I thought it was desperation or despair
It was because she knew

She knew I was with others

She knew I lied and covered what was true

I loved her and running I realize now
She always knew and allowed me to go

Serving her purpose until

I completely left her alone with my no

I destroyed her faith in loving me
I want her back to sit and talk

I want that moment when she saw me

She ran across the room and jumped

Into my arms with such intensity
I want the funny messages and her smile

I want those moments of adventure

When her face was outlined by the clouds

I scream, “I love you” from miles away
Did she hear it? Or am I just imaging?

Maybe she will hear it…

Maybe she will leave a sign of her feelings…

In a poem so I will know…

Things I hope I taught my kids…

I sit here feeling gratitude for everything despite the upsets that have found it’s way through the cracks today. However big the obstacle, I have learned to question “Will this matter in a hundred years?” And it puts things into perspective of what really matters in life. I hope that I have taught my kids well in order to make this world better. Encouraged by my boyfriend, I decided to share what I feel helps to easy the struggles in life. So here they are:

Things I hope I’ve taught my kids:

1. Our job as people is to serve and grow toward unconditional love. But sometimes we do have to “show our teeth” when something is against love. 

2. Never lose yourself in the titles that people try place on you: mom, teacher, girlfriend… titles are just a general idea of people and not the depth You are as a person

3. Try not to judge or cause harm because the same judgement or harm You place on others will find its way back to you in life in some way: yourself, your kids, your family, or friends.

4. If You sit in the middle and make no decision (right or wrong) you never move and life will force you to decide because we all are always progressing. So even a reasonable bad decision is movement toward a lesson learned.

5. If some one doesn’t like you or accept you because of something they may lose (another friendship, status), walk away because life has a way of not allowing more suffering than what is needed for you to learn. Don’t fight upstream. 

6. Don’t be afraid to say no if something doesn’t feel right, and don’t be afraid to say yes if something excites you.

7. Boredom breeds creativity and intuition. Learn to be able to sit alone and learn who you are so that if you saw yourself in another body, you would know that was you. 

8. Always take time during the day for heartfelt prayer, meditation, or soulful growth. I promise it’s worth it. 

9. If you make a mistake and a person uses that mistake to justify not liking you anymore, they subconsciously didn’t like you anyway. Mistakes are sometimes life’s way of removing that which does not serve you.

10. Love is not measurable nor is it a thing. It is a state of being. Be love and show love. You can love many and it doesn’t disappear just because a person loves another nor does it disappear with distance.

11. Success is always in the definition YOU make it into. Follow your calling which is connected to your heart. You’re the only one that can hear it.

12. The only promise in life is unconditional love, so trust that everything in life is set up for you to learn unconditional love even in the darkness. Allow yourself time to heal and find your light. 

13. Remember you are always loved by those you see and those that you do not. Even your enemy will be used to teach love in some way. Trust without even a small doubt and be confident yet humble in yourself. Love yourself.

14. Always be grateful for everything. Say thank you to others and the creator. Be grateful of your struggles to learn and be grateful for your blessings. Never take for granted a moment, a person, job, or situation. It is all working for you because of the image your created in. 

15. Everyone is a guru in some way. Sometimes a stranger, a friend, a song may speak a random sentence that hits your soul even if the person is the complete opposite of you in every way. The universe uses all people and situations to speak to you and will never give up, but you have to listen. 

The Frequency of Love

Go ahead and hide behind the mind
Don’t worry, soon enough it will all align

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I’ll sit and whisper “have you found me yet?”

Was it me behind that illusive angered fret?

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Did you find me in clothes that are a fragile shell?

Did you find me in the paper money of man’s fairy tale?

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Did you seek me in your work trying to mimic my power?

Did you learn in your degrees of how only I make man cower?

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Did you study the wars to search me out through truth?

Did you memorize your religion to find my root?

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Did you see me in destructive weather when there were no homes?

Did you find me when you took in a strange child that was not your own?

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Did you discover me in a song that echoed your life?

Did you feel me when you had to say goodbye to your wife?

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Did you exercise your body to fake my presences?

Did you find that diet that made you want my elegance?

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I was there the whole time watching you grow

Watching and waiting kindly, patiently for you to show

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You found a piece of me within your own mold

Life after life gathering pieces to align the soul

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It’s me that conquers time and space

It’s me that provides your only escape